Do you feel like you are in the right place at the right time? You recognize that you were suppose to be in that place at that specific time. It had to be more than coincidence that you found yourself there. It was exactly the perfect match of your skills to solve the problem at hand, or it was the perfect match of your weakness with an opportunity to grow. Yet through all of this, you still would rather be somewhere else?
Let me explain what I mean. You know that you need to be there, but something inside is not allowing you to fully take it all in. You are engaged and disengaged at the same time. Your attitude is out of sync.
When we want to be somewhere besides where we find ourselves, we are typically disengaged to an extent. You see this all the time when people are on their phones while in a group setting. Physically they are present for the conversation, but realistically they are in a virtual conversation that is being played out by alphabet characters on a handheld screen. They might throw in a nod or gesture throughout the conversation, but we all know that their mind is not there, it is where they would rather be at that moment.
As I am preparing to leave for Haiti, I find myself in this state of disengagement mostly due to my attitude. If I could, I would be on a plane in an hour bound for Port-au-Prince to help people in such desperate need, but that is not where I find myself now. Currently, I am in Atlanta awaiting the clearance to be able to hop on that plane to take me to Haiti for the next 6 weeks to 2 months.
While I am here preparing mentally and emotionally for what I will encounter, God keeps showing me reasons why I need to be in Atlanta and not Haiti right now. In order to help those that are sick and in need of assistance, I need to be healthy and equipped to perform when the time comes. That is why I am in Atlanta. I needed to heal and answer questions that have come up in my life.
Over the past few weeks, I have been amazed at the answers and realizations that have hit me straight in the face, most of the time occurring completely unexpected. They were dead on with what I needed to hear at that moment in my quest to find clarification. I must confess though that my attitude at the beginning of these encounters was not the best. I didn't want to be here, let alone hear things that might cause me to confront things head on thus possibly delaying my trip even longer. What I have come to discover is that until we deal with our issues, even some that we thought we had already dealt with properly, God will keep bringing those items up in every possible way imaginable until you deal with them.
You cannot ignore things indefinitely and be able to move on. Yes you can still pass the time, but that is all you are doing. You are not growing and progressing as a person, which is the formula for maturing.
Next time you find yourself experiencing something that you know you need to engage but you're not ready to accept the message, remove your pride and address the issue. You will find yourself in situations and opportunities to grow. All you have to do is be open to the message when and however it comes. Don't be in the right place, at the right time, with the right people, and do absolutely nothing about it.